2010/09/27

Deepest Fear Just Can't Cast Away

我想,我對於分組和落單的恐懼,是永遠無法抹滅的。
最深的痛可以追溯到國中的時候,上課分組弄報告落進"All the Others"組,和一個人的六福村一日遊:
我痛恨,我認真的使用這個詞--痛恨--那種感受。

知道自己不是個萬人迷是一回事,發現自己被理所當然遺忘的感覺又是另外一回事。
而那是一個最、最、最不該讓我落單的環境。
我該怎麼說服自己遺忘呢?


可以坦白的承認我再一次深深的受傷了嗎?
那種說不出口的疼痛,於是就這樣無止盡的蔓延開來,撕裂、拉扯。

How strong should one be, to pretend that she doesn't care, at all, and to keep living just like that?
How hurt can one be, further, to totally get numb?

Advice me, please...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

好心疼~
高處不勝寒
無論在學校 還是在社會
Because you are such a smart and aggressive girl. Don't let this beat you.

Vicky

WendyChen said...

Thank you for the encouragement, Vicky. This is warm :)

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