下了班繞去辦離校手續了.如同恐龍所說的,拿到畢業證書的那一刻並沒有特殊的感覺,頂多覺得這份東西真的是....得來不易.感觸比較深的時候,是拎著他到地下室找李股長聊天,讓回憶一幕一幕跑過的那當口.天啊,我就要這樣離去了....
談 完了天,我踱步向徐州路大門,繞過弄春池的時候整個傷感的情緒湧上來-這是我待了三年的地方啊!這是培育我四年的學校啊!光陰荏苒,時光飛逝,這四年發 生過的種種,是如何的令人記憶深刻,又如何的讓人覺得不可思議啊!放眼望去的一草一木,多麼熟悉又多麼陌生,是否我從此再也沒有資格嚷嚷著:這是我的臺 大!這是我的學校了?真是如此嗎??
在門口佇立良久,我有股好深的衝動想要對整個校區深深一鞠躬,可是我還是沒能辦到.我怕,怕被身旁的人覺得我 矯情,也怕自己一旦彎下腰去,就會讓情緒一發 不可收拾,讓情緒潰堤.我只是默默的用眼神瀏覽這美麗午後裡校區每個角落的圖像,貪婪的,熱烈的;緊緊抓住手中的畢業證書,此時的我才豁然發現這兩張紙的 意義,低頭看看上面的文字,抬頭看看眼前的景色.不誇張,連之前絕少被我注意到的校門口國旗,此時在風中飛揚的模樣,也已然深深印上心版了....
後退,後退,轉身,別了,徐州路21號.
別了,台大社科院.
別了,我飛揚的大學歲月.....
傍 晚本就跟JOEY約好要開車去載他的電腦捐到社辦使用,所以其實才告別社科院沒多久,我又重返了.少了對校區的激情,這趟旅程紮紮實實充斥著的,是我和 JOEY兩人在車上的對話,是這份說不清楚的特殊友情-我們是戰友,是老友,彼此因為惺惺相惜而保有一種很難被清楚形容界定的默契.巧的是,我們在同一天 完成了離校的手續,對於離去,我們都抱持了相當濃厚的感傷與不捨,尤其回顧一起胼手胝足闖蕩出來的世界時,尤其提到這數次一起出國奮鬥/遊樂/成長的經歷 時.
或許該這麼說,我們一起走過的旅途很短,也很長.前者是時間上的概念,後者,則是精神上的體驗.在我的天秤上,後者的比重顯然大許多.而且我要說:如果有幸,讓我們的旅程無限延伸吧!誠心所願....
另外,我永遠會記得JOEY下車前最貼心的兩個小動作:
1.把他自己德國那年的會議手冊補貼給我(因為我自己的被章某人無心帶走).
這件雞毛蒜皮小事,我已經遺忘了一年以上,而JOEY為了這樣一個小miss而耿耿於懷,因為他知道 我在乎....
2."下一次見面不知道是什麼時候了,請保重!謝了."+ 一份JOEY式的擁抱.
I can barely say anything more.....
他讓我載著滿滿的一車感動離去.滿滿的.....
Maybe it's too late to say it. But,
It's truly my pleasure to meet you, Joey.
Thank you so much!
2005/07/26
2005/07/24
BUSY
開了好幾次會,做一大堆東西,打一大堆電話,傷好多次心.....
我的忙碌,可以掩蓋我的莫可奈何;
我的忙碌,卻又會驅使我不斷逃避,逃避,逃避,想找一絲喘息的空間,來讓自己不忙碌.
那我到底該忙好?還是該不忙好?
我的忙碌,可以掩蓋我的莫可奈何;
我的忙碌,卻又會驅使我不斷逃避,逃避,逃避,想找一絲喘息的空間,來讓自己不忙碌.
那我到底該忙好?還是該不忙好?
2005/07/20
玻璃窗下的昏黃燈光
讓我駐足於D教室良久.
窗上的奇異光暈真要說有多美絕對是言過其實的,只是在這樣一人留守公司的夜裡,她隱隱透出的卻是一分難得的溫暖,難以言喻的悸動.
往後的某個夜裡,我或許又會在另一扇窗上發現另個令人欣喜的窗景,然而,她還是取代不了這獨一無二的夜,這獨一無二的昏黃燈光,和這獨一無二的
感動.....
窗上的奇異光暈真要說有多美絕對是言過其實的,只是在這樣一人留守公司的夜裡,她隱隱透出的卻是一分難得的溫暖,難以言喻的悸動.
往後的某個夜裡,我或許又會在另一扇窗上發現另個令人欣喜的窗景,然而,她還是取代不了這獨一無二的夜,這獨一無二的昏黃燈光,和這獨一無二的
感動.....
2005/07/19
2005/07/18
2005/07/16
Realism
represent in the other version(s) in life.
My job itself is quite realistic. Money, money, money! All the pressure comes from MONEY.
So is my co-workers' faces and attitude.
Dad's realistic. After he realized my job in KISC would not pay me any bucks, he looked so disappointed and said, "Somebody had told me that the job in Swiss would provide you a high salary. What's wrong with it? Am I confused one job with another?" Yes, he is. Afterwards, he told me to carefully think about my future after KISC. Plus, he asked me to rethink the trip to Tunisia, which is sooooooo expensive and causes lots of problems in visa, flight dates/route/money, and so on.
Originally, I believe my parents to be the most open-minded ones, and will support me to explore and experience the world freely. I believe them to be the most understanding parents who'll not put so much emphasis on money(salary), and will deeply believe in their daughter to grab other valuable chances to become a precious person with ordinary characters and experiences. Recently I know the reality. Somehow, they're just the same as most moms and dads....
The operations of scout group, and the members inside, are realistic. We're not that good as we always say to the "outsiders." Increasingly, I have found that we're nothing more than a loose group. Our friendships leak easily when we're heading different directions, and when we're processing diverse dreams/goals. The passion we had before may not return again. Although there's still chance to establish a new era, yet it is the "new" one, concerning different people, timing, and forms. Oh.....All the golden old days.....
My job itself is quite realistic. Money, money, money! All the pressure comes from MONEY.
So is my co-workers' faces and attitude.
Dad's realistic. After he realized my job in KISC would not pay me any bucks, he looked so disappointed and said, "Somebody had told me that the job in Swiss would provide you a high salary. What's wrong with it? Am I confused one job with another?" Yes, he is. Afterwards, he told me to carefully think about my future after KISC. Plus, he asked me to rethink the trip to Tunisia, which is sooooooo expensive and causes lots of problems in visa, flight dates/route/money, and so on.
Originally, I believe my parents to be the most open-minded ones, and will support me to explore and experience the world freely. I believe them to be the most understanding parents who'll not put so much emphasis on money(salary), and will deeply believe in their daughter to grab other valuable chances to become a precious person with ordinary characters and experiences. Recently I know the reality. Somehow, they're just the same as most moms and dads....
The operations of scout group, and the members inside, are realistic. We're not that good as we always say to the "outsiders." Increasingly, I have found that we're nothing more than a loose group. Our friendships leak easily when we're heading different directions, and when we're processing diverse dreams/goals. The passion we had before may not return again. Although there's still chance to establish a new era, yet it is the "new" one, concerning different people, timing, and forms. Oh.....All the golden old days.....
2005/07/15
久違的熟悉
下了樓迎接你,話匣子就這麼打開了,直到你被正事攔截,我被弟弟用惡狠狠的眼光驅趕;
中間偷了個空,我們又把談話場地轉換到客廳沙發,亂倒亂臥亂坐,嘴巴上沒停過,可惜弟弟再次將你擄走;
我敗興上樓沒入自己的一團忙碌中,在一通電話的末段,你自在的進了房門,穿過海豚掛飾躺臥在我的床上,靜靜的等我掛上電話.爾後,你的語速清楚傳達了你的 緊張,你的結巴更是.可是那些怎能妨礙我們迫切想要告訴對方更多體悟/想法的心呢?接連不斷的話題就這麼流暢的冒出,冒出,冒出,直到媽媽前來提醒:業已 12點,夜深.我們才驚覺時光的流逝.
我知道你不想走,從你再次穿越你送我的吊飾下那一刻開始,我們的話題又前進了,甚至到了地下室,我們又傻傻的多站了十幾分鐘.
喔,差點忘了,那襯衫領帶很適合你!
更適合讓我捕捉在回憶裡,細細品味你的迷人丰采.
原來我 還是會動心....
中間偷了個空,我們又把談話場地轉換到客廳沙發,亂倒亂臥亂坐,嘴巴上沒停過,可惜弟弟再次將你擄走;
我敗興上樓沒入自己的一團忙碌中,在一通電話的末段,你自在的進了房門,穿過海豚掛飾躺臥在我的床上,靜靜的等我掛上電話.爾後,你的語速清楚傳達了你的 緊張,你的結巴更是.可是那些怎能妨礙我們迫切想要告訴對方更多體悟/想法的心呢?接連不斷的話題就這麼流暢的冒出,冒出,冒出,直到媽媽前來提醒:業已 12點,夜深.我們才驚覺時光的流逝.
我知道你不想走,從你再次穿越你送我的吊飾下那一刻開始,我們的話題又前進了,甚至到了地下室,我們又傻傻的多站了十幾分鐘.
喔,差點忘了,那襯衫領帶很適合你!
更適合讓我捕捉在回憶裡,細細品味你的迷人丰采.
原來我 還是會動心....
2005/07/10
Take the Challenge! Wendy!
Kandersteg的詳細通知來了.鉅細靡遺的向我揭示了接下來的日子裡將要面臨的難關,包含孤單小女孩瑞士(/北非&歐洲?!)大縱走!!!!!!WOW!!繼日本大縱走後又ㄧ次高潮!!!!
得找個時間好好來研究一下行程&跟旅行社交涉了.
還有護照.簽證.裝備.交通.$$問題.
還有....似乎該恢復我的重訓行程了!!
我不想昏倒在阿爾卑斯山 = o ="
This is-- Ｌ。Ｉ。Ｆ。Ｅ！
得找個時間好好來研究一下行程&跟旅行社交涉了.
還有護照.簽證.裝備.交通.$$問題.
還有....似乎該恢復我的重訓行程了!!
我不想昏倒在阿爾卑斯山 = o ="
This is-- Ｌ。Ｉ。Ｆ。Ｅ！
Mr. & Mrs. Smith
好ㄧ對暴力的神仙眷侶!哈哈哈哈!!!
話說,我跟弟弟看到笑得東倒西歪,怎麼有這麼有趣的電影啊!!!
還有.喔喔喔~我的小布真的好帥~~~~~(他要變成安潔莉娜瓊斯的了 >"< what a pity~)
週末夜就該配好電影渡過啊!
話說,我跟弟弟看到笑得東倒西歪,怎麼有這麼有趣的電影啊!!!
還有.喔喔喔~我的小布真的好帥~~~~~(他要變成安潔莉娜瓊斯的了 >"< what a pity~)
週末夜就該配好電影渡過啊!
2005/07/07
The Last Night
Last night, I went to Aprilbreeze's Graduation Concert. The melody of the Chinese music should sound much better, but due to their time limit of practice......never mind:P
However, I still love the tiny concert, and the atmosphere they created. It was a reunion of the B90 members, and all those good and bad effectes, laughters and tears were/are/will be their best memories of the music group, the lovely people, and of course- NTU.
In addition, the most thing I loved last night was their last song- The Last Night. It was sang by a famous female singer "Ching Tsai," and was one of the best songs to symbolize the gloomy feelings of farewell with beloved people. I was truly touched by the song, and the words of the singer last night, "Ladies and Gentlemen, thank you for coming and supporting us, people of B90. This is, our Last Night. B90's Last Night..."
Oh My..... B90, that's us! have graduated....
However, I still love the tiny concert, and the atmosphere they created. It was a reunion of the B90 members, and all those good and bad effectes, laughters and tears were/are/will be their best memories of the music group, the lovely people, and of course- NTU.
In addition, the most thing I loved last night was their last song- The Last Night. It was sang by a famous female singer "Ching Tsai," and was one of the best songs to symbolize the gloomy feelings of farewell with beloved people. I was truly touched by the song, and the words of the singer last night, "Ladies and Gentlemen, thank you for coming and supporting us, people of B90. This is, our Last Night. B90's Last Night..."
Oh My..... B90, that's us! have graduated....
2005/07/01
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