She felt the infinite passion, the desire to make contributions, the hunger to offer her expertise to make things work, but similtaneously she sensed her biggest disadvantage and the cruelty of reality.
No one to blame. Nothing to blame for.
So she chose to shut her mouth.
So she walked, as she used to do- by the lake, across blocks, in the snow- by herself.
How dearly she wanted to believe: "CHANGE- Yes I Can!"